On motivation (or a lack thereof)

Apr 08

I won’t lie to you guys. Book 2 progress is going slower–much slower–than I had hoped it would. This is mostly my fault for having what I’m sure are unrealistic expectations of how quickly the writing process would go (having romanticized how “quickly” it went the first time around). But also I’m just really struggling with finding the motivation to sit down and write. This is me, every time I think I should go write:

I’m caught in this space where I KNOW I should be writing, but then I get stressed out because I’m NOT writing, which doesn’t exactly motivate me to write more.

I know, I’m a headcase.

But I also know that what I have written already feels pretty solid, and that whenever my motivation does finally come back to me (or when I finally strongarm it back into my life, haha) my hope is that the words will flow fairly easily. I keep trying to remind myself that writing Terra was pretty much exactly like this. A lot of nothing for a few months, and then BAM! Motivation and inspiration up the wazoo, and a first draft completed in 8 weeks.

In the meantime, I’ll just keep searching for that catalyst to help inspire me forward in my writing. I can think of two particular things that will be key here:


I need to quit. Like, cold turkey. It’s bad, guys, really bad. Reading reviews of my own book seriously do nothing but hinder my productivity–even if it’s a good review. You read a good review, and suddenly you’re all like, “Wow, I’m an amazing writer. I don’t need to actually sit down and make myself write, it’ll just happen because I’m so amazing I must have magical writing powers that will take care of everything!” And if it’s a bad review… well, I hardly think I need to give an example of the thoughts that occur after reading through one (or some) of those.

2. I need to read some bad books.

I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned this before, but one of the big things that pushed me into overdrive when writing Terra was actually reading Fifty Shades of Grey. I know, I’m still kind of ashamed. But! Reading such terribly written prose really gave me the nudge needed to put a book that is at least SLIGHTLY better written out in the world. So maybe I just need to surf Amazon for some truly heinous books, instead of reading all the excellent novels I have been (many of which are by my self-publishing cohorts!). Any recommendations?

I’m almost afraid to say this, but I’m not sure how realistic my (admittedly ambitious to begin with) publishing Summer 2013 release date for Underground is at this point. We’ll just have to see, as I’ve found things can progress very quickly and without warning, but I just want to throw that out there. Thanks for (hopefully) sticking around for the sequel anyway! I can promise that whenever it does come out, you’re in for quite a ride. 🙂


  1. Can I just say that I find it hilarious that your muse/inspiration comes from being better than bad?

    It immediately puts this song in my head:
    Ren and Stimpy – Log Song – It’s better than bad, it’s good!

  2. Try out ‘Beautifully Damaged’ by L.A. Fiore. Relatively cheap and fraught with annoying dialogue. I can loan it to you on Kindle if you’d like.

  3. Now that your quarter quell birthday is done hopefully it will be easier to focus on your writing… I have a 12 year old son who keeps asking when the next book will be out. I think it is a great accomplishment that even a picky preteen boy loves your storyline!! <3

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